Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! Psalm 139:23-24 ESV
This week we took the time out to celebrate Martin Luther King’s Jr. holiday, my mind was racing with so many thoughts with everything that is going on in the world today, such as Racism and bigotry at an all-time high; and natural calamity in the United States and abroad, rumors of wars. Should I say something about the beloved community, should I say something about one of King’s primary themes of Love being the cure for hate. We must continue to remain vigilant and speak truth to power and remind one another about staying encouraged and hopeful.
I am in a place where I want the Lord to search me, to work on me, I need to love and be more forgiving and forget what is behind, I also need more patience, it does not take much to turn me off and then I’m finished with you. That’s not Godley behavior or exhibiting the fruits of the spirit. I can hear someone saying, “oh, don’t be so hard on yourself,” maybe, but as Tamala Mann sings “Change me oh God Make me more like you Change me oh God Wash me through and through Create in me a clean heart So that I may worship you.” We let love and forgiveness roll out of our mouths, but if to thine own self-be true, we do not like some people for a number of reasons and forgiving them is so difficult. Yes, I am aware there is grace in the process, and as the Lord said to the apostle Paul, my strength is made perfect in weakness. All of this is fine, but I am praying for the lord to do a new thing in me, and lead me in the way of everlasting. This is my way to Honor Dr. Kings Legacy, asking God to search me and clean up the grievous ways in me, so that I can be lead in the way of everlasting and become an agent of love and apart of the beloved community. We may have sufficient grace, but as Dietrich Bonhoeffer writes about in his book discipleship, we should not cheapen God’s grace. Remain encouraged. God Bless.