When I look back over my life and begin to dissect what worked, it was my faith, the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen.  I believed and stood on the promises of God but I had a relationship. I activated the Holy Spirit within me.  I Knew what I was singing about, when I sang the great hymn of the church …”And he walks with me and he talks with me and he tells me I am his own and the joy we share as we tarry there none other has ever known….” again relationship.  Did my faith ever waiver or go as small as the mustard seed? Yes, but I was anchored and I held on.  I can remember My Uncle would sing this song: “When you walk by the way I will lead you from the fatness of the land I will feed you and the high place I will bring down.  What is wrong I’ll make it right all your battles I will fight and the high place my heavenly father will bring down…” And of course after I looked up the words to the song, he changed them; but it became my praise and worship song in the shower, in church, while walking through the city, while praying.

I knew about those high places, difficult situations in my life that I had no control over.  I knew I needed the Lord to fight my battles; there were days when I needed the fatness of the land to feed me because I was broke.   I was living in New York City, working and paying for my advanced degrees.  This song offered promises that were scriptural for the Israelites in Exodus, Genesis was referenced in this song, and Isaiah was referenced in this song.  Throughout scripture God reminds us of his promises.

My Parents did finance the first degree but I had three brothers that came behind me and they needed to help them.   The bible tells us that God will take care of us.  I came to believe that when I took one step God would help me in taking the next step.  Ok, you want to call me a church girl? The club was not my help, even though I would go on occasion. I needed a place of refuge, I needed a source, I needed a way maker, I needed a bridge over troubled waters; I needed a ram in the bush like Abraham.  I needed hope when things seemed hopeless, so it was my faith in God; it was relying on his promises.  One of my favorite scriptures when things were heavy was psalm 91 I made it personal:  He that dwells in the secret place of the most high shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust…..Faith in God works.  The road won’t always be smooth; the road will get bumpy, wet and slippery, but learn how to walk by faith and not by sight and God will be with you with every step you take and every move you make.  God bless you.